"Something That Never Comes"

In the distance I searched,

In a place where there was only emptiness.

A vast land filled with fog and broken dreams.

I sacrificed my search of hope to at least find sadness,

But found nothing.

I was embraced by the chasm of depression,

Happiness polluted by hollow words.

Footsteps that could no longer be lifted off of the ground and knees that have grown roots,

I was lost,

Nobody came to my aid,

Instead I was left to weep for an eternity as I searched for infinity,

I dipped my hands into love and only felt what it is to be broken,

I am lost.

I have chosen to forget emotion,

Give up attachments and plea for nothing.

I have taken refuge in isolation because it is the only love in which whom has not fully destroyed me.

Isolation is my only guarantee, and you,

You told me I could find you in the midst of these times,

But I have long forgotten life in my search through poignancy,

Looking for another answer besides that nothing will come.

Hope belongs to us all,

But it was stolen by manic disbelief, dismembered and left in areas where creatures now lurk. In places we once found beauty and are now too afraid to go.

Incapable of progression due to the comfort of isolation, we can’t be hurt if we have nothing left to give nor can we be hurt if we have nothing left to be taken.

I yearned that I could find an emotion that is somehow connected to forgiveness,

But as I search through these limitless planes,

I have forgotten what hope was.

Forgotten what my search entails and have embraced the only understanding that I am assured.